November 13, 2012…

My hero getting in some exercise.

She looked adorable standing there in her fuzzy blue hospital socks and her patterned fleece nighty – stocking cap perched precariously on her head. She was examining a Ciroc liquor bottle that she’d found on the kitchen counter – I’m sure curious at its contents. My mother, so frail and sick from pancreatic cancer. This was no longer the strong woman that I remembered. She still had the fight in her… But now, based on her appearance alone, there was no denying the fact that she was losing the battle.

Today the doctors told her that she wouldn’t make it through Christmas. This made me angry. I told my mother that they had no right to put a time stamp on her. That was for God to decide, not some presumptuous doctor. Still she cried. I’d hardly ever seen my mother cry before all of this. She was always a pillar of strength. Now I found myself with my arm around her diminutive shoulder as she shed tears. This felt so odd to me – so surreal. I hope my words got through to her. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

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6 thoughts on “November 13, 2012…

  1. I just stumbled on this page almost by accident, but as my uncle told me today, nothing happens by accident. I keep a journal of my journey with my mom who is battling pancreatic and gall bladder cancer on my computer and Im thinking of sharing it with the world. They dont think she will make it past February. The doctor isnt God, just hold tight. Wishing you and your family all the best. Once your mom has breath, dont stop praying for a miracle, even when it seems like the end is near.

    Love Joylyn

    • Joylyn thank you so much for your kind and positive words. For me personally this blog has been an amazing way for me to purge some of my feelings and share my story. Most importantly, I’ve had the opportunity to connect with some amazing people with similar stories. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. We’ll have to pray for each other πŸ˜‰

  2. Keisha,
    What a beautiful story. Stephanie had asked me had I been following your blog and I said no. I am so proud of you the way you were there for your mom. Any mother would be proud to have you as a daughter. Even though it was hard for you, you did what needed to be done. God truly blessed your mom with a wonderful daughter. Just know that you will always have a guardian angel looking down on you, your mom. God Bless!

  3. Thanks for sharing. Saw you on CBS. immediately went to the website to aquire the crafts. Just made 59 not married no children, AA. Mom passed away 11 years ago with the same thing . I resided in 2 places for 5 months. I dont know how I made it through it. Made me a stronger woman.

    • Sharon, thank you so much for watching, and thank you for finding me here and sharing your story. I feel the SAME exact way about my situation. I had no clue that I was that strong. Hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Again, thank you so much for stopping by and I’m so glad you enjoyed the crafts and projects. πŸ™‚

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